December 2009
24 posts
2 tags
“You can avoid reality, but you cannot avoid the consequences of avoiding...”
– Ayn Rand
3 tags
You came out of nowhere into my life
When I was most vulnerable and lonely.
You were my prince charming,
And I was Chinderella.
But how long can a fairytale last?
When will we part?
When will reality set in?
When will I be crying again?
I want to love you.
I want you to love me.
But I am scared and I am weak
I dare not speak.
3 tags
Take my hand, and we will jump in unknowing of the ending or consequence.
Take my hand, and we will find an adventure to live and laugh though together.
Take my hand, and I will hold it tight when I am scared.
Take my hand, and I will keep walking with you, wherever we may go.
3 tags
When my thoughts turn to you,
My lips can’t help but smile.
Every muscles tenses
As I anticipate your touch.
Do you remember?
Do you care?
I do.
I do.
Your nervous hands trembling,
I remember
your light touch unsure.
Now memories…
My heart has opened,
But, how do I close it?
Will my eyes dry of tears?
Will my heavy chest be relieved?
Too scared to ask,
Too scared to...
2 tags
When the fish didn’t hook,
I was sad and gave up -
and all was forgotten.
3 tags
If you ask me
What I like -
If you ask me
Who I am,
I will respond
“I don’t know.”
Memories, I have few,
Dreams, I don’t remember.
Maybe I forgot,
Maybe I never knew.
What happened to me before,
I’m not quite sure.
2 tags
“They say that people find comfort from knowing all things will come to an end....”
1 tag
I’ve always wondered what would the world be like if I wasn’t here. Would my friends still be going to the same places? Would everyone still be acting the same? Why was I born where I was born, when I was born? Why did I meet the people I have met?
3 tags
At the time, I didn’t recognize your face because I was sitting at the very back. Standing on that stage with the blue and purple lights shining on your face, it wasn’t until the last song that I recognized you.
You’d think that I would know it was you immediately, since I have been sitting next to you everyday for the past months.
The song was beautiful. I didn’t know you sang so...
2 tags
Courage, I told myself, I needed courage. I held my breath and opened the door, and peaked in. The room was dark, except for a few flicking lights from the computer and alarm clocks. I bit my lip and tip toed in. The room was buzzing from the technology and I couldn’t think. I was looking for something, but what?
I found your cell phone and turned it on, the bright screen blinded me in the dark....
5 tags
All I want is my friend.
I miss him,
Where are you?
Just “how are you?”
And “What’s new?”
Every so often.
I don’t need to talk everyday.
I don’t need you to miss me.
I want you to be happy.
3 tags
The waves crash the shore in the dark and I can smell the crisp, salty air. I feel your warm hand gripping mine, and you shiver as you put you arms around me. It’s winter, and the beach is empty.
My eyes adjust to the dark and I can see the white breaks floating in the black waters. The waves are loud and echo in my head. We don’t speak, but I can feel you. I want a kiss, so I turn and look into...
3 tags
Last night I left without speaking to you.
At the airport I waited for your call,
On the plane I remembered your laugh.
This morning I woke alone and cold;
My cell was dead, no calls or texts.
At two you messaged me and made me smile.
We won’t meet for ten days or nights.
You’ll have fun, and I’ll have fun –
But I’ll miss you.
4 tags
You make me smile, but he cares for me.
I miss you often, but he’s always there.
You like your freedom, and so do I
But he’s reliable, whenever I need him.
I am selfish and jealous,
Possessive and needy –
I’m everything wrong for you;
But he doesn’t mind.
4 tags
Rather than my heart racing,
I am at peace.
Rather than worrying,
I know he will always be there.
Rather than missing you,
I can sleep at night.
3 tags
Why can’t you be the one who calls me every morning?
Why can’t you be the one who I eat lunch with everyday?
Why can’t you be the one who asks how I am, or how my day was?
Why can’t you be the one who loves me, and wanted my love?
Why aren’t you the one here next to me?
3 tags
I stare at my cell phone – 5:03. Three whole minutes and you’re still not here. It’s cold outside, and my pull the collar of my jacket together. I let out a long sigh and a ribbon of white streams out. I stare at the white as it dissipates into the dark.
At 5:20 you come running down the street out of breath and sweat rolling down your face. You apologized, said the traffic was horrible...
3 tags
Last night I left without speaking to you.
At the airport I waited for your call,
On the plane I remembered your laugh.
This morning I woke alone and cold;
My cell was dead, no calls or texts.
At two you messaged me and made me smile.
We won’t meet for ten days or nights.
You’ll have fun, and I
4 tags
Two months have passed since we last spoke –
Or rather, when I spoke to you.
Said you’ll call me,
But never did.
Said you missed me,
But it doesn’t show.
Said you love me,
Did you ever?
Perhaps you wanted to,
I waited for you.
Perhaps you meant it,
I trusted you.
Perhaps you did,
But not anymore.
4 tags
Hidden deep, below piles of papers,
Sleeps your face always still.
Your lips are closed,
Your skin is smooth,
Your eyes are still
From when you loved me.
4 tags
Your smile makes me smile.
The same smile, how many girls have seen it?
I want to comfort you,
But you run to the next person.
I’m standing right here –
But maybe it wasn’t to be.
5 tags
The rain fell, your face sparkled.
You looked unhappy at the sky, but I didn’t mind.
We ran together, and I held your hand.
7 tags
When I was thirteen, I was convinced that I was in love.
We worked on the school newspaper together – he wrote sports, and I took the photos. Every time I saw him I couldn’t breathe; I felt my face turn red and I never built the courage to speak to him. On the day of graduation, I prepared baggies of cookies and chocolate to pass out. I was still so embarrassed when I saw him that when he reached...
10 tags
Let’s hide-n-seek in the fog,
And shoot hoops in the rain.
Let’s Hop-scotch in the puddles,
and blow bubbles in the wind.
Let’s play shadow tag at night,
And pillow fight in our dreams.
Let’s count the stars in the sky,
And be engulfed by the ocean waves.
Let’s accomplish the unimaginable,
Then come back to feast!