December 2010
36 posts
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I try to think, and I don’t remember, why exactly I first loved you.
All the time I tell myself to get over him already. It was a beautiful memory that was good for me, but now it’s over and I need to move on. But there’s so many unanswered questions, so much regret, guilt, and excuses. I can’t help but fall into an area in-between.
So how did the mess start in the...
“I dated a douche.”
So I just got home from a long, awkward dinner with a bunch of high school friends. It’s three of my friends’ birthdays these couple days so we just had a big dinner. Of course, I showed up on time at 6. 6:05, nobody. 6:15, two people (girl and boy). 6:30, one of the birthday girls with my ex. And then the other 11 people trickle in until 7. Best time of my life..
Sitting...
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I get so angry when you don’t call.
so paranoid for days,
I’m ready to leave you,
to cut it off, dead.
But you always change my mind,
I always see your side,
I always want to meet you.
Can’t you let me go?
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I crave your sweet kisses
and your hands around my waist,
I want to hear your voice
and feel your warm breath on my neck;
I don’t care about anything else
Just pull me in close now.
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“I like my trees toasty.”
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Don’t look at me with those eyes
Don’t look so sorry
Don’t look like your understand
Don’t look like you can fix me
Because I will be fine
You don’t know what bothers me
You don’t know the truth
Only I, and I alone.
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For the girl who doens’t live here
but high above the clouds
wandering the endless mind
You’ll find a rainbow
of butterflies
High in the sky.
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Turkey, roast, salad, fruit, cookies, yams. That’s my friday. Christmas? It’s up in the air.
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If I could touch your back
Your neck
Your waist
Your ears
Your lips
I’d stay like that forever
By your side
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You never liked butterflies,
But I’ve always loved them as my own.
You never liked my worrying,
But I’ve always been afraid.
You never thought I needed you,
But I’ve never told you I did.
You never tried to love them,
You never tried to stop me,
You never made yourself there.
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I don’t want what you’re giving me.
I don’t want what you’re proposing.
I don’t want this kind of life.
I don’t want this kind of stress.
This kind of worry,
This kind of hurt.
I don’t need this hurt again.
I don’t need this scene again.
I don’t need this kind of love again.
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The cloud passes by
And no one knows,
Too busy to notice
It floating in the sky -
But it doesn’t mind
In a world of its own,
It dreams of love
In a faraway land.
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somi-gee asked: Your writing is beautiful and inspiring. It is almost like you're inside my head when I read your work! I never post any of my own, but I wish I could write as well as you do :)
Okay well that wasn't really a question, soooo what's your favorite color and what/who does it remind you of?
Okay well that wasn't really a question, soooo what's your favorite color and what/who does it remind you of?
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I can’t tell you that I miss you,
because you’re thinking of someone else.
I can’t tell you that I need more,
because you’re already strained.
I can’t tell you the truth,
because you don’t really want to know.
I can’t tell you that I love you,
because you don’t know;
you’ll only break my heart.
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It’s good to be on break. Along with break, there’s sleeping, eating, shopping, and no writing. Yeah, I’ve been lazy and it’s been good. :)
So I don’t know where you’re from or what you celebrate, but where I’m from it involves buying gifts and eating lots of food. The food part I’m good. The gift part.. I’m not that excited.
My family...
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Have you heard of Chrome for a Cause?
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Just the thought
of seeing your face,
feeling your touch,
hearing your voice
in your arms
makes me smile like a fool.
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I can spend my whole day
day dreaming of a future with you
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what a complicated love
to fall on my door step.
what a complicated friend
to suddenly appear on my lap.
what a complicated fear
to rise from my stomach.
what a complicated decision
to release from my heart.
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I don’t want to steal him,
but he keeps comming back.
He’s not mine to have,
but why is he already here?
You think I stole him,
But you never accepted him.
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did you know?
I’m the shining light that’ll pull you out of your misery. I will be the strengh that keeps you with the world of the living. I’m the one who counts your days. I’m the one who will stop the world from hurting. I’m the one who can protect you. I’m the one who will inspire you.
I am the one you need.
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round and round
you dance
in my head
without a soul
no legs
just floating
your face
haunts me.
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you’re in my bones,
forever stuck.
hardened and crusted over,
like a broken bone
forever making your mark.
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That boy who watches
silently, wishes for what
will never be his.
That boy who watches
with talking eyes,
snatches what he wishes.
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That girl who smiles
Can’t, but think
of unhappy
things about
to not smile.
Never again
will I kiss without thinking,
close my eyes to the world,
get blinded by a touch.
Never again
will I make excuses for others,
feel responsible for what’s not mine,
make the same mistakes
that mark my self destruction.
Never again
will I promise what I can’t.
Never again
will I promise.
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What would you do for me?
Would you wait for the sun to rise,
The waves to hit the cliffs,
The tide to rise,
For me to come?
Would you give me the hugs,
the hot chocolate and cuddles,
the kisses and love,
that I desire?
Would you give me your heart
your soul your promise
to me?
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Your face is funny,
I’ll laugh at it.
Not in a mean way,
like a bully or a judge.
I like the funny -
the spots, and pimples
the freckels and dimples.
They’re cute,
so I’ll laugh.
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don’t you lie
when you say you love me.
don’t you think of her
when you hold me.
don’t you kiss me
unless you mean it.
don’t you touch me
with other thoughts.
don’t you hurt me
because she hurt you.
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You know when it’s time
to wake, to hurry, to sleep.
You’ll feel when you cannot.
I’ll be your alarm clock,
to tell you when its time-
to realize, to pause, to think,
to go again.
I’ll be there,
to remind you.
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Testing’s up soon. Three whole days of three hour tests, consecutively. I shouldn’t really complain though, my classes are supposedly relatively straightforward. Other than my modern art class. I have no clue what he wants to write in our essays.. they’re kind of out there, if you know what I mean; but I’ll just write everything I think of.
To those with tests, good luck....
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Doesn’t she know,
how beautiful she is?
Doesn’t she know,
she’s all that he sees?
Doesn’t she know,
how he loves her?
Doesn’t she know,
the words he would speak?
Oh she knows,
How her hair glistens in the sun.
Oh she knows,
The way he looks at her.
Oh she knows,
his very secret -
But she never tells,
That he will always be hers.
