Secret Dreams

Don’t cry before I leave,

Don’t say you’ll miss me,

Don’t say you loved me,

Just say you care,

Just tell me It’ll be alright.

Do you have a little wish,

One that I can grant?

Do you have a secret book,

That I can read, alone?

Do you have  a silent whisper,

That no one has heard before?

Can you tell me something,

That will make you all mine? 

Do you feel the sun shine

Warming our curled toes?

Do you hear the birds cry

Notes of passioned love?

Do you hear the silent smile

As I melt into your skin?

I don’t care if you think she’s pretty,

I don’t care if you think she’s smart,

I don’t care if you think she’s funny,

Cuz I don’t need to be perfect - 

Just tell me I’m pretty, too,

Just tell me I’m smart, too,

Just tell me I’m funny, too,

And I promise I’ll be content. 

Isn’t it strange? The way I miss you?

Isn’t it strange? The way I love you?

Isn’t it strange? The way I want you?

I miss you all the time

but I won’t call you,

I love you all the time

but I won’t tell you,

I want you exactly as you are

at that very moment, just —

Baby we’re still alive - 

we’re still alive and kicking it

back on the couch 

relaxing with my boo

It’s all I wanna do, 

We’re moving as fast as we needa

Nothing’s gonna make me leave

any sooner than I need to. 

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What imma be doing as soon as I finish this paper: 2 paragraphs down. 10 pages to go. Sigh, Hope you’all are enjoying your break/ good luck on exams (and papers!) :) 

Yearning for the warm sands,

Sitting in the cool sun,

Wet salt hitting my cheeks - 

For now I’ll settle

For sunny yellow on my toes. 

I heard you,

when you thought I didn’t

I heard you,

when you thought I hung up

I heard you,

even though you didn’t repeat it

I heard you,

say “I love you” 

Stranger with your pretty eyes,

Why do you look at me so?

Filled with amber love,

Looking at me with swirly eyes,

Can you see me?

Do you see me?

I am not a pretty face -

There’s lots in the world I’d like to change,

What happens if I want to change you, too?

Will you still look with your pretty eyes

only at me? 

Will you tollerate my moods?

WIll you tell me when I’m wrong?

Will you stay strong for me?

Stranger, I want to know,

Will you come closer?

It’s not what we do,

Not what they say,

Not what we say,

But the words without sound,

The looks without a whisper,

The touch without explanations,

That say “I love you.” 

I swear I can feel

your heart beat lightly,

In the bottom of my throat

I cannot breathe -

I know you,

but I don’t.

Let’s getaway

from the pounding sun,

Let’s getaway 

to the end of the world -

To where it’s just

me and my boo

Where do the balloons fly

When they turn into a speck

Where does the sun go

Just beyond the horizon

What games does the ocean play

When the fish sleeps

Where does the sun shine

When it is night

What does the man fear

When no one knows the question

I try to see clearly,

To be objective,

To say something bad,

Something true,

Something real;

But all I can think of

Is how you wait outside my door,

How your eyes focus on me,

How you hold my hand;

I’m probably wrong- 

No, I know I’m wrong- 

but you’re perfect:

and that doesn’t bother me one bit. 

I can tell you now

That I’m afraid,

That I’m not as strong

As I may seem,

I can tell you now

That I’m not afraid,

To let you know

That I’ll be ok,

I can tell you now

Because you’re here,

You’ll hold my hand

And keep me warm,

I can tell you now

That I love you with all my heart,

As much as I can feel

That you love me, too.